See Me

See Me

I want,
To grate my nails down your spine,
Rip the skin, make you bleed,
Hurt you, twist you,
Force you to see me,
For once,
Maybe
I won't hold my breath

I want,
To rip your eyes out,
Since you don't seem to see me,
Pull, harder and harder,
Until they pop out,
And I can see into your mind,
Literally
I wonder if anything's in there?

I want,
To kick you on the backs of your knees,
Make you stumble, fall
Frightening, isn't it,
To feel such fear,
To feel weak?
You should have thought about that,
A long fucking time ago

I want,
To break you,
Like you thought you broke me
But you were wrong,
You didn't see me, the real me
I was more cunning,
Than you could have ever dreamed,
Than you would have ever believed

I want,
To watch you fail miserably,
As you try to explain,
Your actions,
Your mistakes,
The choices that YOU made,
As you attempt to come up with reasons,
And pointless excuses

I want,
To pay you back,
Ten thousand times,
For all the grief you have caused me
No suffering could ever be enough,
Because you didn't see me,
Now you do, but it's too late,
You are already falling

jlp October 26, 2008-Revised April 24, 2009